Six months into this year. Almost 12 full months since I gave birth to Phoenix. Worlds of professional projects and logistical movements and now I find myself in the middle of yet another Mercury Retrograde and I tell you, life is still whirling around me, offering me all sorts of tantalizing options.
Trajectories implore me to choose them. Opportunities are everywhere.
But my main focus for this past year, of course - the "maternal preoccupation" that overrides all else - has been my baby son.
I will always be able to manifest new opportunities, pluck out new threads from the quanta. But these are the days where he is being shaped, where he is looking to me to know what to do, and how to be in the world.
This is a big responsibility - none of us wants to consciously pass down a legacy of fear, limitations or emotional baggage to our children. We want them to embrace all the possibilities of the world, we want to give them the world, as much as we can.
I know this - that I would rather train his mind to be disciplined and determined than buy him toys. I will encourage his problem solving and strategy skills, his cleverness, his strength, his freedom to express. I will teach him that there is always a way to get what you want - when you know what you want, and you want it enough.
My in-laws are visiting from the UK - and spending time with their grandson, finally. It's so lovely to make memories together with family. And I am so blessed and thankful to have such closeness and unconditional love in my own family.
I feel as if I've been sleep-walking for the past few months - and finally, perhaps as a result of my recent illness, the fever has finally broken and I can see more clearly my purpose and my goals, my true allies and the best uses of my energy in this lifetime.
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